Personality Disorder
Saturday, July 10, 2010 @ 2:45 PM | 0 comment(s)

It was a very tiring week for me. I was so battered I didn’t get to write a journal every day, so I think I could only manage to have a week-long account of my crazy college life.

I’m starting to get used to the smell and noise from the construction works above, beside and under the school’s building; to the annoying long lapse of break time; to the bone-breaking cold in every room; to the grogginess I feel every subject; to the conflicting schedule and the available rooms; to the surprising increase in the number of students; and to the unusual behaviors of my schoolmates. Surprising.


In a span of week, I had realized that above average (by community status) kids also get broke and short. How normal; I’m naive. I’m starting to realize that not all of them are brat assess that could always get what they want. They are normal and mediocre people, too: they eat tapsilog, order at a fast-food chain, walk under the heat of the glaring sun, ride jeepneys, complain about the overpriced food in the cafeteria, do jologs stuffs, and yeah, get broke and short. Maybe I overestimated them; maybe I was just ignorant.

My Tuesday, which was my 17th birthday, was very normal and quiet. I didn’t dare tell them that it was my birthday that day. I don’t want a spotlight on me; I don’t want too much attention. They only learned about it through Facebook. Social networking sites – advantageous and disadvantageous. Ugh. All I really wanted for my birthday was to watch Eclipse. My schedule and fate didn’t want to give way for me to sit in front of a big screen inside a very dark room with my best friend slash forever movie companion beside me. I want to see Riley and Victoria and Seth and Rosalie’s and Jasper’s pasts come to life!

I was a bit annoyed and irritated this week. It was because of the very long break time last Thursday and because of my friend’s secret being passed on to every block mate. It was very wrong! It was a very personal secret, and it could ruin her future and her chance to still study and learn despite of her situation. I felt furious; my teeth were grinding madly against each other. About the break time, we started with our drastic and painful-to-the-butt PE1, from 7:30 to 9:30 am. After that... break time. Wretched break time. Our next class was PHGC at 2 pm. Four and a half hours of boredom and stupid affairs. Good thing Fully Booked was just a few walks away; my life is practically about endless books, anyway.


I am still irritated, I don’t know why. I need chocolates or anything new to read – and Eclipse.

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