Worst hangover from him
Saturday, October 23, 2010 @ 7:04 PM | 0 comment(s)


I didn’t have any brilliant moments with Sam on the night of his birthday. It was just the norm, thank yous and greetings. When I see him in person, it feels ordinary. I don’t get all wild or crazy anymore. He just looks exactly the same as what he is on the tube. So I feel no difference or anything. Maybe the fact that you get to rub shoulders with him, to talk to him, have eye-to-eye contact with him, or maybe smell him stands out. But trust me, it’s utterly normal. I didn’t even gawk at him all the time like what I use to do. It was like he wasn’t the only person that mattered anymore. I mean, what I only wanted was to greet him, give my gift, have a photo with him, and have fun. But please, do not think that I don’t like him anymore. In fact, the fondness grows bigger, and deeper, and stronger each time. I don’t want to be overboard; I just keep it to myself. Anyway, I did get to talk to him… and it was regretful, always regretful.

After we finally got to be near him…
Faye: *gives the gift* Happy birthday!
Sam: Thank you! *Hugs* (Yes. We hugged, finally!)
Friends (Samsters): Ayee!
Faye: *looks down* Ano ba yan. Nahihiya na tuloy ako. (That was true! I got shy.)
Sam: Okay lang ‘yan. (He said that before, which meant I was always shy.)
*poses for the camera*
Faye: Happy birthday ulit. *Hugs again.* (Sam was already sweaty and hot.)
Dana (Samster): Ay, may ganon?

Then, I was just staring at something for a moment. Those things really sink in to me very late. I only felt kilig after, like, 5 minutes or so. It was like I’m schizophrenic, or maybe I just react delayed. Crazy.




Before we went home, we had decided to have a group photo with Sam. So we’re all ready. I was standing beside him; we were at the back because we’re one of the tallest. He put his right arm on my shoulder. And we were already smiling, all set. But then, his mom came and gave him her phone, saying that it was a call from Hong Kong. So we broke apart and lingered. I never intended to listen to what he’s saying, because I respect his privacy, but his voice was loud and he was talking swiftly, and I couldn’t help admiring his articulation in English. He was like, “What?! Mikee Lee in Hong Kong?” and “I haven’t heard anything from there / I haven’t gone there (I’m not sure what he really said) after what happened (maybe he was talking about the hostage incident last September). He was so fluent; I was green with envy.

But guess what? At the near end of the conversation, he had his hand back on my shoulder again. While it was there, I put my left hand on his back and I patted him several times while saying “Okay lang yan.” And I was taken aback of what I did. Fail move, Faye! I was astonished at that time because of the hand rested on my shoulder. And he sounded frustrated (on my ears), so I thought I had to do something. I was wrong, I know. I was so paranoid and anxious about him thinking if I’m serious, or trying to be funny, or just down right crazy. But he looked at me, and he smiled, and I tried to relax a bit. Did that mean that he thought I was just trying to be funny? Or did he think I’m crazy? But I didn’t care. This will pass, and he’d forget about it, anyway. So finally, we had four group pictures, and had another photo with just the two of us. I like how he always put his arm on our shoulders. It means that he cares and he’s open with his fans and with his crazy and trying to be funny fan.

Love. ♥

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