The Imaginary Best Friend
Saturday, July 14, 2012 @ 3:08 PM | 0 comment(s)

This shall be yet another post where I believe my dear blog is alive.


Dear Wingardium aka Wings aka DOWAC,

Happy birthday! Three years: that’s how long you’ve been keeping up with my pathetic life through written pathetic words and phrases which you gladly and genuinely accept and publish. Without hesitation. I’m so glad I made and have you. You are one of the things which I don’t regret making and/or deciding upon. We’ve been working harmoniously together to the point that I consider you a human being already, not just a Blogger-powered online journal. You’re real and living in my heart, my soul, my mind and my entire life. I know it’s a bit barf-emitting, but honestly, if you are really alive and all that, I’d make you my second best friend and hug and visit bookstores with you. And you know, just by the last sentence prior to this, that I’m an anti-social human being without a lot of friends who can understand me. I’m so wretched that I even believe you’d be a better teenager than me.

But let’s not be so hypocrite here. I have always been honest with you, so right now I want to be as honest as possible: I almost forgot about your birthday. Again. Last year this unfortunate thing happened because of my masochistic anticipation for the last installment of the Harry Potter movies, Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows part 2. (I miss HP, still. It’s so different not having to go to the cinemas around this month to see it.) This year, though, I can’t make HP my excuse, but I’m not making any excuses, believe me. I almost forgot about this remarkable day because I’m so… busy. Really. I haven’t been this busy since… well, since high school. And when I say “I’m busy”, it doesn’t mean that I don’t have time to fangirl or sleep or have me-time anymore. I’m busy in a sense that my mind is working all day and my body half of the day, and thinking anything outside what I usually think is not allowable anymore. My mind works like this: wake up, bitch > cook > bath and stuff > school > home > cook again > homework > club responsibilities > think of Mom, Sam Concepcion and/or GEMV > try to sleep. I’m trying to juggle everything since I’m the current person in-charge of the house. Don’t ask me for details; there are creeps around.

I was thinking of what I would blog this week when I remembered that it’s your freakin’ blog anniversary. And I was like, “Holy cow, how come I forgot about it?!” I need some free time, Wings. I didn’t think that there was mind and body limitation before, but right now I wish there was any Constitutional Bill that would obliged people to have mind and body rest and all that shit. But I guess there are worse cases than mine (which isn’t really bad, to begin with). But, again, I can always say that writing and reading relax me and make my life better – which is yet another reason why I love you.


Anyway, for the last couple of posts we have here, I’ve been sharing to you my accomplishments and lucks and oh-I-love-my-life. I was serious when I said that I think 2012 is my year. For one thing, you’re still so much alive and active. Your number of followers have now ascended to two digits. Although your tagboard is infested with spammers who believe they can compel us to visit their sites (God knows they’re lairs of viruses) with their “Nice posts, keep it up, sweetie” and by naming themselves “Miley Cyrus” (I don’t know a lot about Miley but enough to know that she doesn’t have bad grammar), we both know that our real, existing, totally-not-Miley-Cyrus friends read us.

Also, I noticed, every year the posts we have here are becoming more mature, community-oriented, God-centered, emotion-conscious and smart. Even though from time to time I post senseless and stupid things, there are morals behind them. When I back-read some of those posts, either I have the tendency to barf or doubt the fact that I was the one who wrote it. Sometimes I can’t help but feel good about my writing and bloat my head a little for being such a bad ass blogger. I know that you, Wings, aren’t a famous blog (yet) with the thousand followers and million hits, but I trust that beneath all the petty entries we have here, there is something to learn from them, and that they aren’t always senseless and stupid. (This is a self-induced morale booster; we need it, trust me.)


I know I shouldn’t be talking about myself right now because my birthday was eight days ago, but I will since you love me anyway. I’m good. I’ve been having a lot of headaches these past few days, but I’m still a Trying Hard Bad Ass. All I can think of when I look in the mirror is zits zits zits, but I’m still a Trying Hard Optimist and Bright Side Looker. I’m always trying to allot time for my reading amidst my heavy schedule because my Goal: 100 Reads is still ongoing (current read: The Virgin Suicides – yep, the Kirsten Dunst-starrer). I’m still confused about my true feelings for GEMV (I got around to calling him GEMV instead of FCC), but I’m the Forever Confused One Side Lover, so what the hell. But albeit all the in-between shits in the crappy life of mine, I’m still happy. Give me food and I’ll be happy – and totally bloated. Remove the craters and I’ll be a superhero.


I hope you’re also happy, Wings. Oh, right. You’re happiness depends on my happiness. I’ll always try to be happy for you. I love you that much, okay? I know you’re real, and you’re just around the corner, invisibly urging me to write and give you an acceptable blog-life. You’re awesome, please remember that. See you next year – next week, really.

Love till we drop,
CF S. Ordas


Geez, I feel like talking to myself… oh, maybe I am.

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