. It’s a rainy month, yes, but everything had fallen where I wanted them to be, and I became more active and more of myself while still keeping in mind what I can and cannot show the public; everything went great that it felt like the weather was great, too. A lot of things happened: I’ve been elected as an officer in three different clubs (which is
); my first pair of super heels had been purchased; my first mountain had been trekked; I’ve gained more friends and even extended to other students from other Institutes; my energy level had gradually heighted, which led me to several beaten up nights.
July is my birth month. Usually, it would piss me off when it’s July and nothing good happened (even my birthdays are lame). But July 2012 had been so good to me that it’s scary to end it. It wasn’t perfect: major zits on my nose, pain-in-the-ass chores and school requirements, and lots confusion in many aspects of life. It wasn’t crystal clear perfect and spectacular but it was great. It’s even better than June. It was great, okay?
JULY ARCHIVES
(what I’ve written and posted in this blog)Nineteen Years Later
(Friday, July 6, 2012)This was by birthday post. It was by far the
best birthday I had: I finally was released from the awful chains of being eighteen years old (it wasn’t my favorite); I was immortalized and officially became worthy of being a member of the Salvatore brothers’ nest of vampires in Mystic Falls; I’m blessed and thankful for everything; I’m loveless but still happy. I’m basically living a dizzyingly rollercoaster-painted-in-neon ride that only goes up.
The Imaginary Best Friend
(Saturday, July 14, 2012)Last year, I decided to dedicate an entry for this blog on its anniversary. It’s my way of looking back on weird things and of reminding me that I have an awesome blog. I almost forgot about this special day but good thing I made it on time. This blog is an extension of the endless string of blessings I’ve been receiving. I can’t imagine living without having to write about my life, the shits and myself, so I guess if not for this blog, I would have been a walking zombie for quite some time now. I know it’s has been infected with spammers lately, and that random celebrities declare that they “support” me and that I have a “nice blog”, but I believe it’s still a blog and I will forever keep it that way. I promised last year that I won’t delete this even if microblogging sites sprout nonstop and take over the world. I will stick to my blogger.com journal, no questions asked.
One Sided Bittersweet Gravity
(Saturday, July 21, 2012)An extension to my
“Status: Perilously Infatuated” post, this was an evidence of how confused I was with my feelings for GEMV – and a sure way to suicidal. “I miss him a lot, even if he doesn’t miss me back. I like him a lot, even if he doesn’t like me back. I would just wait for that moment when I’m really sure what I feel, and for that day when we meet again and hope I won’t freak out.” I’m so stupid. Geez, let’s just read books.
Hamartia Overload
(Wednesday, July 24, 2012)Hamartia is the word for a hero’s fatal flaw that brings him to his tragic end. I first came upon this word on a novel, and had the desire to ridicule myself and point out all my imperfections again; maybe they would sound less hurtful when I talk more and more about them. Maybe, after some time, I would get used to the ugly ride and reach the I Feel Beautiful Land and sing
Believe In Me on the top of my lungs like I’m Demi Lovato. Let’s do this, Self Esteem!
STRIKING QUOTE“Grief is natural. Overcoming it is a matter of choice.” © Mrs. Woodhouse,
The Virgin Suicides (Jeffrey Eugenides)
BOOKS UPDATEI found it hard to make time for reading because of my tight schedule, but thank the heavens I still finished some fictions and added another Read Book in my
Goodreads account. So far it says, “74 Reads”. 100 is a long shot, but I would try my best to read as much as possible.
July Reads:
Boy Meets Boy by David Levithan (sweet stuff),
Before I Fall by Lauren Oliver (I’m falling in love with this author, and oh, Kent McFuller, let me love you and your curtain of a hair), and
The Virgin Suicides by Jeffrey Eugenides (creepy as always).
Current Read:
Deliruim by Lauren Oliver.
FAVORITE PERSON
(lad/s or lass/ies who made an impact to my life or anybody else’s or someone who inspired me the most)I’m dedicating this section to a fellow Society member and Rotaractor, Mary Ann B. I love her. I guess she’s older than me by a year. She’s like the older sister I wished for but never had. I never thought we would be so tight, with her being a senior and me being an irregular student. I don’t know why she’s so nice to me, or why she decided to call me “Darling” when we’re both not gay after maybe two weeks after I transferred to the school. She’s so sweet and friendly that it’s shameful, on my part, when I get mood fits. She even chose me to be her secretary, which I right away accepted because I like the club and I love her. We work together for the prosperity of the Rotaract Club. They say secretaries are the right hands of the presidents, but in our case we are each other’s
both left and right hands. We can even be each other’s legs and support system. I hope it wouldn’t be awkward if ever she reads this.
FAVORITE PHOTO/GIF ©I’m obsessed with
Michael Colton Dixon. Again. I don’t know if I should get tickets to their show here in Manila; I want to see him but I don’t want to be fed by some Jessica-Sanchez-is-a-Filipino biasness that would
obviously happen. Maybe I would just relentlessly hope that he’d have his own solo concert tour and come back here. I’d save my ass off to get VIP tickets if that happens, I swear!
ONLINE ENDEVOURS
(things I’ve done online to hopelessly make me cyber-famous without removing my clothes or making Youtube covers)I’m basically missing in action this month. I only posted some
Will Grayson, Will Grayson typographies and some painfully
flawless females I might have homosexual crushes with.
SONGS OF THE MONTH- King of Anything – Sara Bareilles (Because I’m currently in love with her, and this song is bad ass.)
- Summer is Over – Sara Bareilles, Jon McLaughlin
- Kontrabida – Sam Concepcion (I seldom listen to Filipino songs, but this is Sam, so…)
- Right By My Side – Chris Brown, Nicki Minaj (Because I love Breezy.)
CHAMPAGNE TO POP
(celebrations, yays, confetti!)Other than my successful journey to Immortalization, my birthday and my blog’s anniversary, I celebrate this month the budding opulence of my social life. I’m not the outgoing type of kid who attends the most talked about parties and drinks ridiculously expensive cappuccino in coffee-bars-with-ambiance. I’m the type who goes to bookstores and looks at shoes like I could eat them. With the personality I have, it’s a miracle for me to have friends and be socially active. But maybe I compromised with them or they compromised with me, but I have friends who don’t mind if I can’t join them in their Friday night outs. They respect my decisions and don’t call me “killjoy” when all I really do was to kill their joy. I love people who can accept weird kids in their cliques.
July was a blessed month, so I’m worried that blessings would stop coming, too the moment this month does. But, just like what John Green wrote in
Looking for Alaska, we can’t know better until knowing better is useless. So let’s do this August! I can’t wait till I write another Nutshell for you.
(P.S.: I didn’t post this on the exact last day of July because I would be super busy that day: Acquaintance party! Dancing! Broadway production! Meh.)
