Evil Cursing Monster
Saturday, February 11, 2012 @ 8:43 PM | 0 comment(s)

I’m so busy – this is my new way of saying “Hi, how are you? Okay, bye. Take care.” Not such of a sweetie this Valentine’s eh?

Don’t expect me to be your lover this month. I’ve already told you I will be busy all throughout the twenty nine days of February. My “busy-bee-business” has already started. I’m always so tired. I’m always so occupied. I feel that I’m always sleep-deprived. I don’t even have the time to watch The Secret Circle, New Girl and American Idol anymore (and yep, I don’t miss an episode of The Vampire Diaries, no matter how busy I am – this is a must). Or have tea party with Captain Jack Sparrow. Or continue reading The Hobbit, for heaven’s sake! I always wake up wanting to sleep more, and always go to bed achingly to catch some zzzzs. I always go to school with a rather unexcited disposition, and always go back home with sore feet and used voice. This has been my daily routine ever since the month had started. Maybe I should list February as my least favorite from the twelve. And I’m complaining as if I carry the world like Atlas. How shallow of me.


Although not that I’m not enjoying my “busy-bee-business”, because heck, I am! I can’t explain how I enjoy my body’s soreness or my tight schedule, I just do. We’ve already started our Legally Blonde rehearsals. I will be playing as one of Delta Nu (Elle Woods’ sorority) members, as part of the ensemble and as the weird-tigress-but-an-overt-flirt Paulette. I like Paulette’s personality: she was Elle’s closest friend in East Coast; she owned a beauty salon; she talked like her words could eat you; her hair was weird; she had a fondness for a guy named Kyle Brendan; and she can freakin’ perform the Irish dance! I’m really excited for Literary Musical this 7th of March. Yes, it was fortunately moved to a much more convenient date. Thank you, Jesus Christ! That way, we could rehearse more and perfect our numbers and beat our competitors’ asses off! We are really aiming to win this year because: 1) we want more bragging rights; 2) heck, we have been sacrificing a lot of classes and note-taking sessions and me-times to practice; and 3) they said it was a “legacy” of the Institute of Liberal Arts – since they had always won first place in LitMus for the past several years. Geez, no pressure there at all!

I’m so happy doing this – this really tiring but fun musicals and acting. I’ve always dreamed of trying theater (and continuing ballet and trying painting, photography, sky diving – and okay, this list will go on and on and on as long as your mother’s mouth when you did something bad) but couldn’t because I don’t know how and where to go. I’ve done some acting in high school because we were required to present scenes from our Filipino books. It’s really fun. But this doesn’t mean that I want to be an actor or a celebrity – geez, not at all. I just like getting into character and playing out personalities I never knew existed.


Another thing: there’s something wrong with me (I didn’t use the word “weird” since that’s my norm): I keep on cursing and using inappropriate words that would totally give me minus points from Sam Concepcion’s parents the moment we are introduced (remember my wish counter?). I already told myself to swear less and gradually erase them in my verbal dictionary. I even wrote it down on my New Year’s Resolution. This is bad. It gets worse and worse each day. Every time I see cute, energetic kids dancing or playing or flying paper planes, I’m like, “@&*$, I hope you would all just stay that small and young.” Or when I see a high school student whose height won’t even pass as a fourth grader, I’m like, “@&*$, seriously?!” (this is so bad – I can’t believe I think of others that way when I’m just a 5’5” myself). Or that moment when I met a senior from our institute whom I thought was a woman because she has pretty hair, I was like, “@&*$, she’s not a she? But she’s so pretty!” (and until now, I don’t want to use “he” as a pronoun when talking about this person, and I still call her “Ate *her name*”). I don’t know why the small things make me swear like I’m a professional in swearing, which I’m not. My mouth is so dirty; it’s like I shoved mud into it. Ha! This makes me remember high school days when my schoolmates would say “gargle some holy water” to clean one’s cursing mouth. But seriously, I need to work on this. The Concepcion family wouldn’t be happy with me and my words if this continues.



This is my new pair of rubber shoes from my aunt! I named her “Pegasus” – or “Pegs” when I’m lazy – because I’ve read from its label that it is a Nike Zoom Air Fitsole Pegasus 28 (collective words I’ve seen printed on the shoes – inside, outside and under). I’m not sure about these labels because I don’t know the types of shoes and how to distinguish which is which. Isn’t it the cutest? I like the color because it isn’t the usual baby-I’m-such-a-girlie pink – it’s hot pink, plus white and light gray. And when I put it on, it makes me taller by two inches. Wow, it makes me 5’7”. She also sent me some clothes which are too sexy for me to wear in normal occasions – but, hooray, the tops came just in time for Legally Blonde (the girls of Delta Nu dressed like “hoochies with class”). Thank you so much, Aunt Edma!


I’ve been listening to two songs lately, both sung by Filipino artists, both came from YouTube, and both are apparently friends: Krissy and Ericka (I count them as one) and AJ Rafael. I may be swearing a lot and criticizing people lately, but I’m gradually liking, listening and supporting local talents in the music industry. I’m such a bad Filipino citizen. Oh well, we all have this little evil monster inside us. No excuses.

Cause it’s 12:51 and I thought my feelings were gone. But I’m lying on my bed thinking of you again. And the moon shines so bright but I gotta dry these tears tonight. Cause you’re moving on and I’m not that strong to hold on any longer.

© 12:51, Krissy and Ericka


Wake up, feel the air that I’m breathin’. I can’t explain this feeling that I’m feelin’. I won’t go another day without you (without you). Hold on, I promise it gets brighter. When it rains I’ll hold you even tighter. I won’t go another day without you (without you).

© Without You, AJ Rafael

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